I know, I know, I haven’t posted on here in a month. Shocker. I’ve just been so stressed out with all these final uni assignments and my dissertation which I have been working on since January (thank God my tutor pushed me to start it early). I have days where I’m really motivated and get a lot of work done, but I also have a lot of days where I would rather just watch a ton of movies and avoid social interaction. I promise to take this blog more seriously after May.
I haven’t been really active on Instagram either. In fact, I began to hate my Instagram and started deleting a lot of memorable posts, which I now regret. Other than uni things, I’m also struggling with my confidence and continuously working on myself. Sometimes, I feel like social media really gets to me because it exposes me to even more beautiful people which can be slightly overwhelming. I need to constantly remind myself that seeing beauty in someone else, doesn’t mean I am lacking any in myself. Having beautiful friends, doesn’t mean that I’m the ugly potato (which is how I’ve always felt around my friends). Likes and followers don’t justify anything, however, at the same time, they do mean a lot to me because I want to be known and get my name out there in the industry in order to become a TV presenter. Being on TV and becoming famous is what I’ve always wanted. It may seem shallow to some, but hey, we all have different dreams.
So I’ve decided to create a new Instagram. I’m still keeping my old one but I will no longer be active on it. This is one of those stages where it’s like “new me, new Insta, who is dis?” I’m entering a new stage in my life and I just felt like a new Instagram account was necessary. It’s my favourite app (it’s probably joint favourite alongside Tumblr) and I’ve had that account since Instagram first launched. I will miss my old account and all the memories on it, which is why I’m keeping it there but also because Negin Mirsalehi follows me on that account. FML. Is it all really worth it Lola?
You can follow my new account @lola.del.rey but only if you’re going to actually like my posts. I hate ghost followers who follow for the sake of following or those people who refuse to like other people’s selfies because they think so highly of themselves. I’m probably going to start following a ton of people in order to get my name out there. I used to think it was embarrassing if your “following” was more than your “followers” but now I realise I was being childish.
It’s really essential for me to create a larger “fan” base (I hate referring to my readers and people who support me as fans because I’m no celebrity…yet) because the media industry is pretty hard to get into and most presenters either know someone in the industry or they’re pretty popular on social media or YouTube (which I will also be starting soon after uni ends).
So yeah, make sure to follow me! And thank you for all of those who always support me, you’re all forever in my prayers.